C'est moi in a purple beret. And the City looking bright on a crisp November day.
I wake
with a slight heartache for the City. My morning daydreams are of Brooklyn. A
stroll around the bustling neighborhood of Front Greene. A cappuccino and
writing pause at the community coffee shop Smooch. Walking down the City
streets with a very dear friend, laughing and marveling at the sights. New York
City cast its spell, leaving me a bit star struck and imparting some empowered
New York attitude.
Inside the colorful and bohemian coffee shop, Smooch,
my cappuccino and writing hangout in Brooklyn.
Lately,
I’ve been working on boosting my confidence center (the third chakra), and a
trip to New York City (to see a dear friend and visit Columbia University for a
graduate program) turned out to be the perfect challenge for a Southern Gal
seeking to cultivate more kick-ass power.
My wise
yoga mentor was the first to make this revelation. In a pre-trip coffee
catch-up date with her, I shared a few current struggles (even sharing I was
nervous about hailing a cab from the airport) and she weaved them together,
showing that many of them stem from not feeling comfortable and confident in
speaking up for myself and my needs. Becoming aware of this pattern of not
voicing my needs helped make it a priority as I prepared and navigated my way
to New York.
The
Universe was quick to put me to the test. Traveling to New York City demanded
that I speak up for myself. My flight into the City was cancelled and I got
rerouted into a nearby airport in New Jersey. The nerves about hailing a cab
from the airport vanished when presented with the whole new challenge of
getting from Newark, New Jersey to Brooklyn. So, I spoke up. I talked with the
airlines, family and my friend in Brooklyn about how to get to my friend’s
place safely and soundly. I practiced being mindful of the present moment,
embracing all what encompassed my experience of waiting for the delayed plane
and figuring out the next travel step.
My
phone announced its final stage before battery death at the same moment when I
realized that my bag had gone MIA at baggage claim. Exhaustion threatened to
turn into hysteria, but the power center spoke up, commanding for me to pull it
together, talk to the airlines, find a ride and get to Brooklyn in one piece.
Around midnight I arrived in the glittering City and stepped out onto a curb in
Brooklyn, which was still buzzing with City life (a film crew shooting a scene
on the corner) and into the welcoming embrace of a best friend.
My stay
in New York continued to offer lessons for my power center. Beginning,
curiously, with my missing bag.
Brene Brown reading and a gorgeous scarf from
Tibet, a beloved gift from a world-traveler friend, were must-haves for the
trip. And the beret. I’m kinda in a French fashion phase.
My bag only went MIA for one night of my stay, but I still had a reaction to not having my things and realized my strong attachment to my clothes and makeup. Honestly, I tend to feel more confident when I feel good about my fashion ensemble and when I’m wearing a little bit of makeup. It’s a shortcut to confidence. True confidence is feeling rock star awesome and gorgeous no matter what.
That
first morning in Brooklyn challenged this fashionista to adopt a more natural
and rugged traveler look. As I dared myself to venture down unknown
streets and get a little lost, I did feel confident, the type of confidence
born out of proving you can do something a little courageous on your own. I
also felt beautiful because I was delighting in my surroundings, in new
discoveries (a park in the middle of the neighborhood, a café called La
Defense) and when I walked down a street called Carlton Avenue, I fell rather
in love.
I could
live here, I dreamily mused, strolling under
brilliantly colored trees, passing charming townhouses and neighbors pushing
strollers and walking dogs.
Carlton
Avenue is where my mind goes when I think of New York. The love at first sight
feeling happened for me on Carlton. When I think of Carlton, I think of that
first heartbeat of love for Brooklyn, of my friend and hear us laughing and feel
that laughter radiate out through my being. This is a soul-friend; I can be
vulnerable and joyful with him. He makes me laugh, liberating laughter that
reconnects me to a playful and confident self.
And
this confident self was taught a lesson even when it came to crossing the
street. At the beginning of my stay, I was slightly petrified when crossing the
street and the taxi cabs did not hesitate in inching up to the stream of
pedestrians, ready to zoom through once there was a clearing. I was quickly pin-pointed
as a tourist because I would jump back and throw up my arms in an pleading
effort, “PLEASE DO NOT HIT ME!!!” Toward the end, taking cues from the natives,
I went at my own (quick) pace and gave those taxis a raised eyebrow, “It’s my
right-of-way, Buddy.”
This attitude travels back with me to Lexington. Though I was most
definitely out of my comfort zone during most of my stay, and I welcomed that
experience, it’s the memory of New York, the moments of courage, the laughter
shared with a best friend, that remain and empower me here, in my hometown.
These memories will continue to sparkle me up and get that confidence center
shining bright, like New York City lights.